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Running that race

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

I'm excited, nervous, scared, giddy, proud and a whole bunch of other emotions all at the same time. Five more days till Race Day! Yeah. Emotional is definitely the word. I've said before that I'm not a natural runner. It was probably my least favorite activity when I was growing up. I dreaded the burn you feel in your lungs and legs. It was too much effort, it hurt, and it made you sweaty. No thanks. Give me a pool, my fins, goggles and a racing suit, and I was happy as a clam. I had my first "I need to run or I'm going to burst" thought on March 14 of this year. The day my STBX moved out. After that, running became relaxing. It was 'me' time. I felt good, de-stressed, calm and happy after I would finish a run. And, if I'm going to run, I might as well have a goal in mind, right? My good friend and the only person quite possibly slightly crazier than me, Judy, said 'Let's do this'. And, without thinking skipping a beat, I said 'OK!'. So, Friday we fly off to San Francisco. I've watched many marathons and Ironmans from the safety of my couch. I can't explain the emotion I would feel, thinking to myself 'One day!'. A time or two I actually shed a tear, wishing that it were me that could do something so totally amazing. But then 'reality' would set in, with school, work, kids, family, etc. and then life would take over and the thought of taking the time to do something for me would fly out the window. Fast forward a few years, through the days of almost-pack-a-day smoking, over-eating, depression, and a sham of a marriage to quitting smoking, starting to exercise, overcoming depression, recovering from a sham of a marriage and here I am. With a smile on my face and callouses on my feet. Standing at the threshold of something that I don't yet understand. I've been reading stories of other First Marathons, trying to prepare myself. But I know until I cross that starting line, I will have no idea what the day has in store for me. The sights that I'll see, the sounds that I'll hear, the other runners I will encounter, and the feat that I will accomplish. I'll be thinking of you all too. So many of you have been just as instrumental in getting me to this point as my running coaches. Your encouragement has been heartwarming. Your confidence in me has boosted my resolve. So many things will carry my heart and my feet over the finish line; my training, my determination, my inner strength, the side-line cheerleaders, thoughts of loved ones, and my many friends, both real-world and blog-world. I don't know how to thank you all, but it feels good to know that I have so many that care. Thank you!

10/18/2005 08:15:00 AM :: ::
  • You go girl! gotta go put on my eyebrow now....

    By Anonymous colleen, at 10/18/2005 09:22:00 AM


  • I'm definitely not what you would call a natural runner. I have always hated running, mainly because I hate working up a sweat. In my mind, if you're sweating, you're doing something wrong. I prefer swimming when I do work out, but lately I haven't had much time for working out at all.

    Hope you enjoyed your run.

    By Blogger Trista, at 10/18/2005 10:34:00 AM


  • I'm so envious of your perseverance. I would love to do this one day, but I like you only like a certain amount of discomfort when exercising. I wish I had you closer so that you would meet me at the track and you would make me go! You've come a long way baby! Some year I may be cheering you on at the NYC marathon!

    By Blogger Carnealian, at 10/18/2005 10:52:00 AM


  • You are my hero - I'm pulling for you! Maybe if you can quit smoking and get your shit together like that, I can do.

    Even if you don't finish, you can be so proud of yourself for overcoming all you did to get there in the first place.

    Have you ever been to San Francisco? I just got back from there - wonderful city. Have fun and good luck.

    Oh, I'm here via Michele today, but I've been before. I should really blogroll you now...

    By Blogger Finn, at 10/18/2005 10:53:00 AM


  • Well, I only make smart-ass comments about your running, but that just shows how amazed I am at what you do. I used to think it was hard to be a single mom with kids and a job, but geez, what you have overcome is also a lot of work in itself. You're accomplishing personal goals you've set for yourself, that's the amazing part.

    By Blogger annie, at 10/18/2005 11:26:00 AM


  • Go for it girly ;-) you've gone through loads

    But don't over pressurise yourself, you can only do so much.

    Good luck to those lucky, fast feet!

    By Blogger The Wisdom of Wislon, at 10/18/2005 11:30:00 AM


  • This is your best post ever - thank you for giving me courage to make some changes in my life. Best of luck in San Francisco!

    By Anonymous JustCara (HisBestFriend), at 10/18/2005 01:12:00 PM


  • Good luck! I have oodles of respect for you!

    By Anonymous Claire, at 10/18/2005 01:23:00 PM


  • I'm really proud of you! I know you'll do great!

    Running gives me a weird feeling of asthma, but if they had stairmaster marathons, baby, I'd be all over it!

    By Blogger Suburban Turmoil, at 10/18/2005 01:35:00 PM


  • You've been doing everything right and have really committed to this. I know you'll do great!

    I'll be thinking of you on Saturday!

    By Anonymous abbynormal, at 10/18/2005 02:12:00 PM


  • Is it really here already? I know you'll do great!!!!! Think of all of us at mile 25, we'll be giving you the final push!!!

    By Blogger Indigo, at 10/18/2005 03:07:00 PM


  • You quit smoking?!?! Now I'm not sure which is the greater accomplishment.

    Love the new layout, by the way!

    By Blogger Bone, at 10/18/2005 03:58:00 PM


  • I do actually get quite a bit of exercise, but on a bike. Running has always seemed more pure, more intense to me. Can't wait to hear what you have to say about the marathon when you get back. You are putting crazy ideas in my head...

    By Anonymous mercuryfern, at 10/18/2005 05:26:00 PM


  • I can swim forever, but can't run worth crap. In high school I could run, I'm trying to get back into it. Good luck!

    By Blogger MarkD60, at 10/18/2005 06:24:00 PM


  • Wish I had the will power to run. I have tried more than once and usually give up.

    By Blogger Beanhead, at 10/18/2005 07:40:00 PM


  • You should be so proud of yourself for accomplishing so much! I know that I hold you up as one of my inspirations when I don't feel like going out and doing my measly two miles. I can't even seem to push myself to three...can't imagine a marathon!

    By Anonymous E, at 10/18/2005 08:53:00 PM


  • That's awesome. Just getting there and having the nerve to try it is a huge accomplishment.
    Here's hoping it's the thrill of a lifetime for you.

    By Anonymous catherine, at 10/18/2005 09:31:00 PM


  • Good luck! And come back to us, you hear?

    By Blogger Raehan, at 10/18/2005 10:00:00 PM


  • Give yourself a pat on the back for accomplishing all that you have! I wish you the best of luck on race day. It will be the best feeling to start that race and then cross the finish line! Can't wait to hear all about it.

    By Blogger mommy d, at 10/18/2005 10:12:00 PM


  • In your honor, I shall drink lots of fluids that day to vicariously help you through the race. ;-)

    By Blogger FTS, at 10/18/2005 10:16:00 PM


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